I should receive my packet from St. Elizabeth tomorrow. They now hold the official adoption records from the Suemma Coleman Agency where I spent the first two months of my life. I was recently granted access to this paperwork because of legal changes by the State of Indiana. All adoption records have been sealed prior to this year, so this will be my first legal glimpse into the past. I’m very curious as to what they’re sending me. It wasn’t but a week ago that they called and indicated that these records were lost. With some additional information on my part, apparently they were found, although for several days I thought that I would never see what was in my files. I will get the chance tomorrow with the scheduled delivery via UPS. I just hope that I don’t miss the postman because it requires my signature. 

I can only imagine what is in this packet? It’s like opening a gift on Christmas. However, it cost me a $50 handling fee and might be disappointing. Supposedly, it contains some notes on conversations with the birth mother, admittance & release dates, background information on the family, and correspondence with social workers. It might help fill in a few missing pieces of the adoption puzzle. Any new information is certainly welcome, but I need to control my expectations. I also wrote to the daughter of my birth mother several weeks ago and haven’t received a reply. Unfortunately, I’m used to being ignored by the family. Since I now have the actual birth certificate with her name and address, I no longer refer to her as the presumed birth mother. She refused delivery of my certified letter; her son never answered my letter; her niece who is a DNA match has not responded to my note through 23andMe; and now the daughter is undoubtedly struggling with my connection to her mother. I can’t really blame any of them from protecting their privacy. It’s the same loyalty that I expressed to my adopted parents all these years. I’m just glad that the family on my birth father’s side has been so welcoming. At least, I now know a little about each of my biological parents, when just a year ago I knew nothing of their relationship. Let’s now see what the postman brings!